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| wow... xanga has a new look now.... hehe... well anyways.... just stopping by here cause i'm feeling a bit lazy... and yea i'm here to bust out some sadness... so i can release so stress.:( I've always like this chinese song called "可爱的家庭" or "My Lovely Family". I forgot some of the lyrics, but I love it so much. I just wish my family can be as warm, peaceful, and lovely as descrbed in the lyrics. I think it was or used to be lovely about 3 years ago, until my brother ruined it. He ruined everything and every one around him. Why would a son torture a father that cares some much for his kids? I hate him for that. | | |
| dude what a day yesterday. it was such a bad day for me. actually morning i mean. i had political final at 10:15 so i woke up like around 8. i looked outside and it was all cloudy and stuff. the ground was wet so it rained sometimes before. so anyways... i dressed up all warm and comfy in my ugg boot and my pink stockings so it wont be too cold when i ride my bike. i started getting to school in my bike and guess what.... it started to rain and it was pouring too.. it was too late for me to go back and take the bus and plus i don't know what time the bus arrive and stuff. so yea luckly there was this dance studio and there was an overhang on the building. so i stayed in for a lilttle, hoping that the rain will settle down. i waited and waited, panicing that i might be late the finals. so i decided to get going. i walked with my bike with my umbrella for a distance, then i began riding my bike one hand on the handle and the other on the umbrella. my arm sleeves, pants, and ugg boot were semi soaked. then it began pouring again so i had to stop and walk with my bike. since it was so wet on the floor, my ugg boot started soaking up all the water and it was so heavy to walk in. the rain stoped a little when i finally arrived, so i began riding my bike again to the classroom. while i was riding on the sidewalk, some frekn car drove all fast and ran into the puddle waters on the curve and splashed water all over me. there was this dude walking next to me and i blocked some of the water for me. haha.. lucky him...so now i'm totally soaked, even my backpack too... man... frekn piece of crap... i wanted to cuss out "shit" but i couldn't say it out so i yelled out "shooot" instead....see how goody i am... hahahha... i bet that guy's all laughing at me... so yea... got there .. parked my bike and while i was walking to the classroom i almost slipped cause my ugg boot's all soaked in water and the floor was pretty slippery.... i stopped by the restroom and shoved in a bunch of toilet paper in to the shoe and squeeze the water out of my hair... all those nasty water fulll of microbes.... then afterward went into the classroom and i took off my boots ... and it felt so uncomfy sitting on those soft seats with my pants soaked in water...... but yea i managed to finish my final at the end..... and that was the craziest morning ever....................worse than having my micro and physio finals on the same day.... | | |
| We saw "The Miracle of Life" in class today. It was about how sperm and egg coming together to form a new life. At the part when the fetus's hand was moving slowing it seems like like he/she was calculating about his/her destiny. It was very fascinating to see the hands moving up and down. That little clip intrigued me to wonder about all the possibilities in life. kinda bored... and don't feel like studying yet...^^ | | |
| Life is full of ambiguous decisions. It's extremely difficult to decide what you really really want to do. Sometimes you decided to do something that is not even favorable to you, but you do it anyway. Sometimes you decided to do things that you like, but then there'll be something hindering it. What if you want to do multiple things that you like at the same time. How is that going to work out? Maybe it depends on how much committment you ought to put in. Maybe it depends on the opportunity that allows you to do it. In a way it is impossible to do multiple things during the same time. I'm missing my AFROTC. :( I don't even know why. I miss it so much...... man.... | | |
| One of my cousins in China just got married today. I have two very close cousins, as close as real brothers and sisters. Both of them are the same age as I am. The old one was already married and about to have a child soon. And the other cousin just got married. All I can think of is wow! It's so fast. I still have a clear memory of our childhood. The fun and yet simple life. That simplicity of our mind had kept us away from the wonders of life. Back then we never thought about the horizon beyond our own little world. I still remember that night when there was a black out in the neighborhood, my cousin and I went out and captured a bunch of fireflies and trapped them in a clear plastic bag. We tied up the bag and hung it over our bed. And that was our light bulb for the night. Simple and yet amazing. I will never forget that incident. I wish I can remember more of our childhood memories. Unfortunately, it is hidden somewhere in the unconscious mind. As simple as it is; No matter how hard life is, there will always be a way out. I will try to believe that motto. ^^ anyways..... I wish my cousins happily ever after. A simple and yet happy life. | | |
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